I can totally relate to how you are feeling. I used to isolate myself, and had so many excuses why I couldnt go out to parties or gatherings. I just didnt like myself much, and it all had to do with my weight. I couldnt wear nice clothes. I wore baggy sweaters, even in the summer time, and a skirt, yes 1 skirt that I wore almost every day, that had an elastic waist. My knees and back were killing me, and it was all because I was fat.
I couldnt take it anymore. I just decided enough was enough. I started last July, and was determined that this was going to be the last time. Its so easy to become discouraged, because we all want instant gratification. It takes time, and persistance, but you can lose the weight. I've lost 80 pounds, my knees dont hurt like they did, and my back to doing fine now too. I have gotten phyically active, I am even doing a 5 week boot camp! Running obstacle courses, running with a parachute, boxing, and running stadium stairs. I would never had thought I would be able to do this.
Alli was my tool to keep me honest. I did not want the dreaded treatment effects, so I stayed within my fat limits. I ate healthy, and found a lifestyle and eating plan that I can live with. I know I am truly a food addict, so I have to keep myself in check, so that I dont gain the weight back again. There is no magic, it takes a lot of hard work and determination. But when you make up your mind, and are determined that you dont want to be fat anymore, its the best decision you"ll everr make. Who would have thought I would be wearing size 10 jeans??
There are so many people in the same boat, and we all understand. This is the best place to come for encouragement, or to brag a bit : ) I do it often, because I am so excited about the new me.
Good Luck, and continued success!
Judi