Hey guys!
*sigh* I too am back after a nice holiday... I was doing so well and then BAM Thanksgiving was the first of many days, which had the line "oh, I'll get back on it tomorrow"..
I had lost a total of 15lbs with Alli contributing to about 10 of that and alas I'm back up. I don't know what I feel. Sad, angry, determined, hopeful, optimistic, tired, exhausted. But I want to be back to feeling as good as I was with Alli. No more being indenial. I remember (I was on Alli for a month) being so happy about having a plan! I just hope I can start back up with the same enthusiasm as before.
I had been meaning to go back on Alli rather quickly once New Years ended, but I kept putting it off... And tonight I was given the comment that although my significant other cares a lot about me, he knows my weight is an issue. I know he will still be there with me and my weight is not a make or break kinda deal, I'm just shocked that after 3 years he was finally able to point it out to me.
Ahem, I'm getting off the main point.. I just can't ignore my weight any longer. In the past, I made excuses that my school and work needed the most attention, and I let my health deteriate. But a wise person knows, health is all we really have (aside from love from our family, and luckily love from my partner too). I didn't take care of myself for so long, that now I'm starting to see the effects.. I also realize that my weight reflected the conflict of emotions I have inside, and now that I have the love of my life, love from my family, maybe I can tackle all that needs healing AND my weight.
I'm 22 and I've never seen myself as "average" weight and I'm hoping that this time.. This time, I can do it!
And first things first, start the three day meal plans before Alli, and make friends with water. :)