OMG I FEEL EXACTLY THE SAME WAY... I feel soooo fat and ashamed of myself. I just can't get going. I stopped Alli and gained the 9 pounds back I lost plus more. What a big bummer. I am starting AGAIN and I am scared. I don't want to be like this forever. I am afraid I will let myself down again and quit. Why did I do this to myself??? Why Why Why???????? 

 Hi my name is Larry and I am morbidly obese and desire change,

I restarted the MyAlli Program on 8/9/08 after ballooning from 273 to 310 pounds within days, toda, 9/4/08, CW 273.
How did I lose 38 pounds in several weeks? I looked in the mirror and said "I am morbidly obese and I desire change and God I need your help to make the necessary changes". 

Never underestimate the power of prayer and the mercy of the one we pray too. I started dieting on 1/23/08 at 362 and today, 9/4/08, my CW is 273; that is 89 pounds of weight loss to date. My current MG is 269 and my GW195 that will be
obtained by April '09.

I want you also to know I was diagnosed as having a thyroid problem and the doctor prescribed Levothyroxin prior to my sudden weight loss. You may have a thyroid problem that has not been diagnosed as yet.

 kwalle, do not despair. i too am ashamed of how i look - i've been on alli for a month. i realized that alli is great. but you HAVE to add an excersice. i chose bike riding, and it has made all the difference. i was walking for 30-45 minutes every morning, but i didn't realize any loss until i started riding the bike (and no flashy thing either - it's a 70's vintage 12-speed from sears that someone gave me years ago).

hang in there - you can do it!!

Larry...

I am so proud of you!!! Way to go...you are such an inspiration to me...

I just started Alli again today...just took my second pill...

The problem I have is I am not a very patient person. That is something I am going to have to be though. I want these pounds off like now. I was always a small person and I just make myself sick inside to see what I have done to myself.

I just don't want to be around people--I am sure they are saying wow look at her she sure has put on the pounds...It is sad. People are crule...

Maybe I should get my thyroid checked...both my parents have thyroid problems... thanks for sharing your experience ...

take care

kwalle 

 Hi Kwalle this is Larry,

Kwalle I have felt the pain of being teased due to my morbid obesity by adolescents and children. I want you to know the teasing hurt and left inner psychological bruising that will never heal. I like swimming but due to my obesity I shy away from public and private pools even though I have lost more than 240 pounds from where I started three years ago.

Kwalle you must be honest and forgiving; you must first be honest in evaluating your daily progress toward losing weight;
you do that by keeping a daily journal; secondly, you must accept yourself as being human; you must forgive yourself for the self-destructive acts that you have committed to yourself in the past, are presently  committing to yourself and will commit 
to yourself in the future. In addition you must apply the aforementioned rules of forgiveness to those that have offended you in the past, are presently offending you, and those that are certain to offend you in the future. Kwalle dump the emotional baggage in the garbage where it belongs.

 I recently tried to convince a MyAlli member who is quitting Myalli’s Circle because she felt her postings should not have been edited. I reminded her Myalli’s censorship has nothing to do with her achieving her GW. Kwalle that MyAlli member allowed her anger to interfere with her mission; and that mission is to achieve her GW by using Myalli’s pills, meals, and nutritional/exercise plan. Kwalle I will not let anything interfere with my mission to obtain my GW 195 by April '09; I personally believe frustration, anger, lies, are tools of the devil utilize to keep us obese. I hope restarting the MyAlli plan helps you as much as it has helped me and please contact me on this thread if I can do anything to help you achieve your GW.     

 Thanks for the encouragement...I started my excercise today. I just walked 30 minutes ...I really am glad...I started out to only walk 10 then I thought well ok 15 and it ended up being 30. I will walk every day and do strength training 3 days a week.  So you have a 70's vintage bike - that is cool. Good ol Sears..I was just there lastnight. Do you have some nice places to ride your bike? I live in the country and it is tricky on the dirt roads sometimes. I enjoy walking the most.

Let's keep in touch...You have inspired me,,,thanks so much...

kwalle

 kwalle,

that's great you walked so much! keep on going - my motto since i started this alli thing is simple - "get moving". i used to spend way too much time in front of my computer, and that encouraged eating & drinking in front of the thing...walk more!

i do have swell places to bike - i live very close to the beach and there a great long stretches that go along the ocean. now that i've been out every morning for about 2 months, i'm ashamed i waited so long to do this. would have saved me months of depression, no doubt.

keep on truckin' - you'll get there

sue

 I love your motto..Get Moving..isn't that the truth..we had to move to get to the fridge to get this weight on so I guess we have to move to get it off...lol

That is awesome you live by the ocean...what a nice biking place. I just went to San Diego this summer to see my nephew graduated from the Marines and I loved the beach and well the weather was just perfect.

I walk on my treadmill and I also can walk down the road.. we live in the country in Kansas and we have great long stretches of road and fields...and my 2 dogs can go along. They are easy to talk to and ya know they never have judged me...:)

Well, you keep on biking - I am proud of you...

How is you Alli going?

This is just my first week on them,,, again...I know they work because the first time I lost well I think 9lbs in a couple of weeks. I just love the nutrition log and work out log. It really helps to see all I eat.

take care and please keep in touch..

Kim

 Hey, the very first step is to not be so down on yourself!!!! You have to believe that you are worthwhile every effort and even when things don't seem to be working out the way that you expect them to you can't spiral back the other way.

Come on, you can walk a couple of extra steps every time you are on your feet - you can take the stairs instead of the elevator and park further away but what you can't do is to be discouraged - I don;'t know about you, but at my house when I get discouraged I eat - which is why I am the size that I am!

But I have learned that even when it is hard and hurts, if I make myself work out (even if I just walk in place while watching a show instead of sitting on the couch) I start feeling better about myself.

Try it and see what happens and make sure you dump your soda and go get a glass of water :-)

Good Luck and write me back

Sunny

Hi everyone,

I find I have to ban concentrated sweets and all pastas from my food plan, because they give me cravings for more, more, more, which is NOT conducive to weight-loss or healthy eating.  I really pay attention to how particular foods affect me; if a regular portion size does not "fill-me-up" then I don't use it in the future.  Just some thoughts.  Tampabayb

Don't give up!  You can do it!  I started at a weight of 179.  I started with walking but then Alli became available to me. I started using Alli in August 2007.  I had my ups and downs with losing the weight.  I would lose 1-2 pounds one week and some weeks I didn't lose any or gain a pound back.  I kept on track most of the time with the calorie/gram in take.   I have had my mishaps with eating too much fat.  But I sure learned quickly not to do that.  I started moving more and the weight came off.  A year later, I am now at a current weight of 122.2. I dropped from size 18 to 5.   I have maintained this weight without using Alli for the past few months.  I wanted to see if I could do this on my own.  Just learning from Alli how to eat has helped me do this.   If I can do this, so can you.  I am the type of person who usually gets frustrated really easily and has no patience but I learned to take it one day at a time.  I am so thrilled at what I have accomplished and with this lifestyle change, my life has been great and happy!!!  I wish you the best and I know you can do this.    Remember:  ONE DAY AT A TIME!!

kathy.. WOW!!  congrats on attaining your goal...and an extra  "atta girl" for maintaining your weight.. you  are  just another  example of alli being a life style change and not another diet.. i am about half way to where i want to be , but i am still encouraged that i WILL get there...but i have said before that "i did not gain over 50 lbs in a few months.. so if it takes a year  or more to get rid of it permantly..thats ok.. i need to remind myself to stay on course and be patient.. at age 55 i dont think  the metabolism is what it was in my younger days..so thanks for the encouragement... kathy

 Wow...what an encouraging thing to read this morning..thanks for sharing...I am one who yes will have to take it one day at a time or else I will end up quiting and I don't want that to happen.

You should be sooooo proud of yourself...way to go!!!!!!!!!

May I ask what kind of excercise did you do? I am walking on my treadmill...30 minutes at 2-2.5 mph that's the fastest I can go right now...my incline ends up at 3.5 .  I hope that is sufficient.

You have made my day...thanks..

Kim

Great post, congrats!  Tampabayb

I know that this conversation all started with "not doing so well".  I see that there are a lot of people out there that really do understand the phrase "not doing so well".  We all want our lives...well back!  For whatever reason we have all put on weight and now we have to get it off.  Most of us have to because of our health, but that sure doesn’t make it any easier.

Reading all your post lets me know that I (we) are not in this alone.  Reading about people just like me that have reached there goal and that they had struggles a long the way lets me know that I can do it too.  Just get up and get moving!

Remember God gives us the strength we need daily to accomplish our goals and to stay focused.  All we have to do is ask for his help "One Day at a Time"!!