Hi, Carolyn ---
My thoughts exactly on "how much I would have gained", without Alli's punishing pass-through of that which would have lodged onto my belly. I radically reduced my fat intake thereafter, but I suspect that some may be lurking in my intestines. The "T.E."s have been too persistent, in spite of the radical reduction. So I have been taking "Colon Care Formula" with water, slugged down before it turns into a gelatinous mass. It is very high fiber, good for fending off diverticulitis, too.
I don't know if you are "being ugly"; I don't have your picture. Perhaps if you place an index finger at either end of your mouth, stretch your mouth, and cross your eyes? Anyway, "beauty is in the eye of the beholder." As for Chinese food, don't trust how some restaurant prepares it. Take a non-stick pan or a wok with only a little vegetable oil in it, add high heat, add the food, quickly stir like mad, short cook time, and --- depending on your choice of food added to the wok, you will have a good Chinese meal with practically no damage to your diet. Enjoy!
My wife died 5 years ago of cancer. She was from China, "took over" my kitchen, and --- even after having our baby, did not turn out "big as a house". --- EcoChevy