Why is it that I can't have more will power? More strength?  I have at least 50 to lose.  But, I am really struggling.  I have been on it for over a week now but can't seem to stick to the diet plan.  It's really hard.  I have a big family that is always having get togethers.  That is the main way that they socialize, they have parties and go out to eat.  None of them have to watch what they eat or at least they don't care about it and it makes it so hard for me.  I see them sitting there.  Their hot and juicy cheeseburger right in my face.  Steaming and hot ready to be eaten.  Nothing healthy to eat in sight.  Of course they don't support me.  And I quote, "O common Nicki don't you just want one of these cheseburgers? They're right there.  Just take one.  You can diet tomorrow. I made all of this food.  Just eat."  I say no but then give in.  Not because they have talked me into it, but because I just want it so bad.  I really want this weight loss but my will power is tested at every turn.  I feel so weak sometimes.  Food is my nemisis.  I am at war with myself.  Every moment there is a war going on in my mind.  Right now I feel defeated.  I just came from my cousins 13th birthday party.  I didn't do good.  I am going to try to get back on the wagon tomorrow but seriously, I would do much better if I could just hole up and never socialize again. Is that ok? What ever it takes, right?  I am at a loss right now.  How do I get passed these terrible road blocks? It shouldn't matter what food is around or who offers what to me, I should be able to just say no.  But that is my downfall.  I can't.  I say no the first time but I can only take so much.  Then the war begins....eat, eat EAT! No, no, NO! Yes, no, yes, no, YES! It never fails.  I need back up!  More troops, something.  Right now it's a losing battle.

 Don't be so hard on yourself - start off by just joining in and reducing your plate by 1/3 of what you normally would have eaten - all of the fun and little deprivation - HEY, it's a start!  Then by 1/2 and/or try to modify some. Don't go cold-turkey on not eating anything with people - that's a good way to sabotage your efforts.

For example my husband and I would have each gotten appetizers with nour meals and today, we split a cup (yes, not a bowl) of chili as an appetizer - we had the flavor and a small portion of the calories. 

Don't beat yourself up so bad.  Just take wht you want and cut a third of it out and give it away or throw it away or save it for another day...  but keep on going, it will get easier over time.

Las tnight the in-laws insisted on dessert for my brithday - so I ordered a slice of carrot cake (so the candle hing could be done) and I ate less than a 1/3 of it and took the rest home - all of the pleasure and none of the deprivation!