Hi everyone.  I'm 31, 5'2" and mother of three (10, 7, 1).  I can't tell you how much I really weigh, cause I haven't been on a scale in ages.  I figure 165, but will know for sure tomorrow at Dr's. appt.  Anyways,  how many of you are like me?  I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror and am completely mortified when I see myself in a full length mirror, cause then I see my body for what it is, instead of what I thought it was.  Absolutely refuse to buy any clothes or take pictures, because again I have to deal with looking at myself.  I know what foods to eat, though I haven't been eating them and I know that exercise has to be a part of life.  I'm ready to make the change. I run the risk of being a borderline diabetic.  The way I see myself has seriously affected my self esteem and I want to feel good.  I want to set a good example for my children.  My long term goal is to be 135 and my initial short term goal would be to lose 10 lbs by Sept. 7.  Can't wait to go to the gym and alli will be a very good deterant on eating the bad foods.  I know alli will only if I am willing to make the changes.  I'd love to hear from other people.