Hello to all,

I have been reading all your posts and it gave me courage to continue. I wanted to quit because I've been on alli for a month and finally lost 2 lbs. Like you ladies, I am also an emotional eater. My thing is basking robins Jamoca almond sundae and their new  Hershey peanut butter cup. Which I found out has 1800 calories. I stop eating it for a while but whenever I am stressed I go straight for it. The worst is that while eating it I feel guilty but will not stop. My husband is very supportive but like all men can lose weight in a matter of seconds, so I would like to also be included in your support group. I want this to be my last diet. I started going back to the gym today and like you Kris, I will go one day and spend two hours then become so sore and don't want to go back. I promise myself to take it easy this time around. So I definitely would like your support and offer you mine so we can all achieve our goals. I started with 180 lbs and want to be 140. Hope to hear from you ladies soon. Congrats to all of you who's doing well.

Hey Chris,

Losing a friend is hard enough without the ravages of cancer taking such a tole on their entire beings.  Robin really taught me that the little joys of life are what really matter.  She was the most eliquent writer.  She would describe days of painting her little girls' fingers and toes, peeling Cinderella stickers off the hallway walls, watching Hope and Grace try new foods and bringing to life their giggles and stories.  Thanksgiving and Easter must be hard for you, but the memories of your friendship are priceless. I know you'll hold them forever.

Did the cake remind you of an angelfood cake? I'm trying to imagine the consistancy.  Guess I'll just have to make it! :).

My last house guest will be gone next Friday (the 9th I believe)so I can get on track.  The possibility of a TE terrifies me as we do the touristy thing so I haven't been on my pills since the 20th of July.  My weight hasn't changed so that is good... not gaining.  I finally joined the YMCA this morning.  I'm almost strong enough for a good workout and I'd love to be in top shape before heading back to work in mid September.  My husband leaves for a three week business trip today and I'm hoping to surprise him with a really good weight loss and firming. It'll be a challenge as I'm usually anxious with him gone, and nurture myself with late night tv watching and snacks.  Hopefully with Alli and you it'll be easier this time around.

Excellent news that you made your five pound goal!  Could you imagine before consistantly losing that much weight and feeling in control?  My personal goal for this week (starting on the 5th)is three pounds.  It will be easier once my neice gets on that plane Friday :).  She loves her pasta and pancakes and I find myself sampling and sitting down and joining her.  After that I'm hoping for 5lbs a week. 

Talk to you soon,

Kris

 Hi Kris,

Sorry I've been missing in action. What a wild week. I was in training through my district M-W, and reported back to school on Friday. Our campus is still really torn up with construction/remodeling. Our staff meeting had to be held in the bleachers. It was 100+ and very humid. Our rooms have no electricity or AC right now. All my school belongings are still in my garage.My husband and my friend's husband are taking off work Monday to get me moved in to my classroom. (Students come back Wednesday. Argh!!)  

I don't know if I mentioned that I began on an insulin pump about 10 days ago. It too has been crazy. Every time I get my dosage tweaked I have to fast through a meal. One day breakfast, the next lunch, and then dinner. It has been hard to fast so much. With all my stress, maybe it is good for me. Otherwise I would probably be gaining weight. Tomorrow I have to fast from lunch until breakfast Monday. I have to check my BG level every two hours and before each meal and for some reason I keep forgetting my alli pill at meal time. I really have to stop that! :)

Tomorrow is my weigh in, I don't think I made my three pounds. I 'peeked' this morning because I am all bloated and cramping so I had to see if I gained. I was down just a half pound. Maybe I can look forward to a bigger loss next week when all this girl stuff is over.

I can't imagine my husband being away for three weeks. I get sort of down when he travels without me so I know I would have a hard time. We are hoping to go back east in October to visit family, so, I am going to try very hard to lose some substantial weight by then.  My new school has a track, so I am hoping to start walking it after school when it is not in use. My doctor hasn't cleared me to be back in regular shoes yet, I am still wearing my surgical boot so I will have to take it slow.

As for the cake, it is dense, almost like a pound cake.  You can try it out on your niece.

I will catch you soon,

Chris 

 Hi Lastdiet and welcome!

You sound a lot like I used to be.with my impulsive eating and stress eating, "I  am happy so I need to eat." "I am dissappointed so I need food to take away the pain." I am mad so I need to calm myself with food."  Sound familiar? I went down that road for years (and still feel the draw to go back at times). The only thing I have found to help me is to busy myself with productivity. I am a teacher so it is easy to throw myself into my work. I love to write curriculum and create new and exciting things for my students to do. Sounds lame but it keeps my mind and hands busy. I have also stopped bringing tempting foods into the house. I call them trigger foods. If I know they are here, I can't seem to stop wanting them. I am not willing to get up and get in the car to go after those foods, so, if I stay busy even for 20 minutes the cravings usually pass. Have a diet soda, H2O with some lemon, if you have to have chocolate or creamy, have some sugar free pudding (60 calories) and a plop of SF Cool Whip. Eat it slow and savor the taste and texture. If it is peanut butter & chocolate you need, try the same above with a half teaspoon of peanut butter slightly heated in the microwave then drizzle it over the pudding and cool whip. It is like a mini ice cream sundae. I have all kinds of little tricks I pull on myself! The first week or two of a diet, I truly deprive myself, then, once I past that, all these little tricks I do to my taste buds seem very decadent. Hope some of this is helpful.

Chris