Hi Kimber,
I'm honored that you added me to your circle of friends! :-)
Like your husband, my husband also needs to lose weight. But, he's refusing to diet at all. He says food is one of his few pleasures. I obviously have problems with food. I think I have had an addiction to food. It's hard for me to try to recover from that while he's eating anything and everything. Most of the time I'm fine with it, but, last night I was suffering a little watching him eat pizza. Yeah, I could have a small piece of pizza, so, it's my own choice not to eat the pizza. I just know that I can get a little more food by eating something that's not pizza. And, frankly, eating just a small piece of pizza would maybe be even harder for me. After getting a taste, it might be even harder to resist overeating.
Like you feel for your husband, I feel bad for my husband. I'm self-employed. So, I've just taken time out of my work schedule to exercise for over an hour each day every day and the eating/dieting takes a lot of time, too. It takes me some time to plan my meals, it takes time to enter them into my food diary, and, because I don't want to go too long without eating, I come home for lunch, and, that takes an hour round-trip minimum whereas before I'd just go to the McDonald's next to my office and that was 15 minutes round-trip including eating time. So, I'm able to cut all that time out of my work schedule, but, my husband has to work a regular job with regular hours and often over-time. I don't know that I could keep this up on his schedule. I don't do well with regular-schedule jobs like that. For emotional and physical reasons, I need flexibility in my work schedule. Plus, I do all the housework and bookkeeping for us and the cooking and cleaning and laundry, etc., and, again, I don't know that I could do all that if I had to work longer hours.
Kimber, hang in there, and, remember that you have every right to feel what you're feeling, so, don't feel guilty about your feelings.
As for planning, specifically the grocery store, I'm getting to where I have a master list of things that I need for a week, and, it's making grocery shopping easier. I think it's easier than it was back when I wasn't dieting and did very little planning! And, having the right food at home is the support I need in order to diet. Before this diet, I was eating at restaurants almost all the time. Now it's the opposite. I've only gone out to restaurants two times in the past 5 weeks. Let me tell you, I know have a greater appreciation for paying a little more at a restaurant! I used to think, oh, heck, I could cook that for less money. Yeah, sure, but, I also now have to wash a mountain of dishes all the time and pots and pans and bowls, etc. Ugh!!!! If you put a dollar amount on the cost of all the time spent washing dishes and pots and pans, then the restaurant meals are cheaper! ;-)
Congratulations on losing the two pounds!
Olga
5'4.5"
CW: 197.8
SW: 225.5 (7-30-09), SIZE 18
aSW: 224 (8-7-09)
GW1: 213 (9-14-09)
GW2: 203.5 (10-24-09), SIZE 16
GW3: 183
